You wake up one morning...earlier than usual... and crack a window open..
Just to feel a slight breeze.

Suddenly...you stop...and you breath in.. and for one second
you feel this rush within you...the smell of that soft breeze has raptured your senses..
You open the window all the way and decide to return back to bed..but before you do, you remember a song, an old song..so you put it on and leave it on repeat...

As you make your way to your bed...your knees give up..and you find yourself laying on the floor..entirely listless and surrendered to the world around you, inside you.....
You dont know what's going on...your mind is blank..your thoughts are blank...but you are more alive than you've ever been in your life...

There on that floor laying like a dead insect embodied in human form...in that moment..you know better than anyone just how alive you really are...

Even though you are doing absolutely nothing extraordinary...these feelings inside you, around you, on you..they are overwhelming..and you can't control it...you could try to, but you know you couldn't...and would you even want to?...

Bittersweet...Bittersweet..this state your in...

If someone were to open your bedroom door and look at you in this very moment..they would label you insane...
They would try to snap you out of it....but they would ultimately fail...
because once your knees surrendered your body onto that floor...you unwillingly gave up all power...

You'll keep wanting to come back to this feeling...
To that certain smell the breeze gave you, to the way the music played in the background, to the tingling feelings making the hair on your body
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To that out of body experience which you can never undo...And from this moment on...you're screwed..

You surrendered yourself...or It surrendered you..but it was a fleeting moment of perfect harmony and absolute freedom...
So unintentionally, yet rapidly discovered...and just as quickly taken away...

You'll spend the rest of your life searching for that feeling once again..
Waking up every morning and cracking open the same window...and listening to the same song...and laying in the same position..
But it'll never be the same..you'll never find it again..
Until you surrender yourself once more...or better yet..
It surrenders you